I suspected when you were guessing at what the note-writers' motivations might be, and then suspected more because of your reaction when I told you my other guess.
[a shrug, and an exhaled sigh.]
It's more that it was a little frustrating to learn I'd been so close to one, but I understand why she couldn't say anything.
[you know, when you realize something was under your nose and can't help but go oh, god damn it. he might have said fuck. it's fine.]
She did say it was recent, but- I'm sure if she had held that position the entire time, I'd have noticed something off eventually. We spend too much time together not to.
[it still kills him a little that he hadn't picked up on it afterward, even though it hasn't been long, comparatively...
he doesn't sound too surprised about the confirmation, though.]
... Not quite. I've cycled through a number of partners since the start.
[Sometimes... the people you work with... die. A lot.]
Regardless, our services have been fulfilled. I am only confirming your suspicions because we are no longer in any danger of being targeted by someone who's infected.
Not to the group as a whole, no. But some things are best handled with people on both the inside and outside.
[if he'd been able to, then yes, he'd have told specific people if it were him. one specific person, at the least. he just shrugs, there.]
There's never been any guarantee that those one trusts won't kill you as monsters, regardless of what they know. It'd be a risk, but entrusting anyone here with anything at all has been one, hasn't it?
We were specifically instructed not to tell anyone. The scenario you are considering is ill-advised, regardless. Beauregard-san was lucky that it was too late for her to face any major repercussions.
[What is....... trust? What is letting people in? That sounds so fake.]
[it's pretty fake for him, too, most of the time. certain people have been a terrible fucking influence, along with the entire situation.]
It isn't always ill-advised. One has to weigh the costs as well as benefits, but if the benefits ever outweigh the cost... there are times it's worthwhile.
[but he waves a hand, at that.]
I'm not saying that it necessarily would have been. Only that I would have considered it. If you think I never tell others anything, you're forgetting I had someone cover for me once already, you know.
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[a shrug, and an exhaled sigh.]
It's more that it was a little frustrating to learn I'd been so close to one, but I understand why she couldn't say anything.
[you know, when you realize something was under your nose and can't help but go oh, god damn it. he might have said fuck. it's fine.]
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[Guess who he's talking about. Just, casually.]
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[it still kills him a little that he hadn't picked up on it afterward, even though it hasn't been long, comparatively...
he doesn't sound too surprised about the confirmation, though.]
It was the two of you from the start, then?
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[Sometimes... the people you work with... die. A lot.]
Regardless, our services have been fulfilled. I am only confirming your suspicions because we are no longer in any danger of being targeted by someone who's infected.
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[i'm crying at the idea that akechi has been the only one to survive the whole time, god, of course it turned out this way.]
In that case, I suppose I can't really fault you much for lying about it... if I'd lost more than one, I'd probably have done the same.
[he's not going to be any less /: about it internally, but
you know. he can't judge.]
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[Knowing you are easily replaced, yet being forced to live while you watch your co-workers die has been... fun. It's been fun and great and sexy.]
If it were you, you wouldn't have said anything even without the additional incentive. Let's not kid ourselves.
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[if he'd been able to, then yes, he'd have told specific people if it were him. one specific person, at the least. he just shrugs, there.]
There's never been any guarantee that those one trusts won't kill you as monsters, regardless of what they know. It'd be a risk, but entrusting anyone here with anything at all has been one, hasn't it?
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[What is....... trust? What is letting people in? That sounds so fake.]
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It isn't always ill-advised. One has to weigh the costs as well as benefits, but if the benefits ever outweigh the cost... there are times it's worthwhile.
[but he waves a hand, at that.]
I'm not saying that it necessarily would have been. Only that I would have considered it. If you think I never tell others anything, you're forgetting I had someone cover for me once already, you know.
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[he hums, though, considering-]
Who else was working with you, before?
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